It has been a long time

I realize it has been a long time since I have written on this blog, but am hoping to get back into it. The first post was about my grandmother who was ill at the time. She passed away and was the first of six family deaths within the next twelve months, 10 deaths in 24 months. My first two years of teaching were hell on Earth. I learned more than I ever would have expected by being thrown into the fire. I still love my students. This year I am teaching at a school a bit larger than the last in my family's hometown. I also work at the coffee shop downtown and love meeting the people of this community. It is interesting to drive down the streets my parents lived on as children, to teach in the school my grandfather learned in, to relax at the lake my family vacationed at. I feel such a strong connection here. I hope to start a family here. Teaching here is different, but I love it. Always something new to add to the puzzle!

Just to let it all out

I am scared. My grandmother, who is like a second mother to me, is in a hospital in Nebraska in critical condition. She has a syndrome called ARDS (acute respiritory distriss syndrome) and is fighting for dear life. I held her hand, stroked her hair, sang to her and told her how much I loved her. I know she knows, but it is still so hard to let some one you love go . She is the most amazing woman woman I have ever known. Her heart is pure, her forgivness is quick and her love is everlasting. he is intelligent and understanding without question. She has known all of my secrets and inner most longings and needs. She has held my hand, given me advice, and helped hold me up in the hardest of times. I will miss her dearly if she goes home to God. I will be eternally grateful for the time I have had with her and the experiences we have had together. I only hope to be as strong as she is. I hope to have the ability to forgive the way she does. I pray that she will teach me more. I pray that her time here on earth is not over and we can all play another game of cards, eat another bowl of ice cream, and watch another soap opera. I miss her. If you have read this, pray for her. Pray for stregnth to fight and peace of mind to follow God. Thank you

Graduation

It is a new year and I am on my way to a full-time career. After spending a semester in Nebraska student teaching, I am ready to move on into my own classroom and start fulfilling my goals and continue fulfilling my dreams. I plan to sub in Kansas for the semster and apply for jobs in Nebraska and Kansas. I don't know where I need to be yet, but I am keeping my eyes and heart open. More to come later!