Just to let it all out

I am scared. My grandmother, who is like a second mother to me, is in a hospital in Nebraska in critical condition. She has a syndrome called ARDS (acute respiritory distriss syndrome) and is fighting for dear life. I held her hand, stroked her hair, sang to her and told her how much I loved her. I know she knows, but it is still so hard to let some one you love go . She is the most amazing woman woman I have ever known. Her heart is pure, her forgivness is quick and her love is everlasting. he is intelligent and understanding without question. She has known all of my secrets and inner most longings and needs. She has held my hand, given me advice, and helped hold me up in the hardest of times. I will miss her dearly if she goes home to God. I will be eternally grateful for the time I have had with her and the experiences we have had together. I only hope to be as strong as she is. I hope to have the ability to forgive the way she does. I pray that she will teach me more. I pray that her time here on earth is not over and we can all play another game of cards, eat another bowl of ice cream, and watch another soap opera. I miss her. If you have read this, pray for her. Pray for stregnth to fight and peace of mind to follow God. Thank you